|This is my take on our beautiful Ambrosia Salad sketch this month. I have used modeling paste, gauze for nesting below the picture, butterflies and of course our three colors. The papers are from my amazing Scraps of Darkness kit titled "Dayglo" along with the pretty pink flower. The other elements are bits from other SOD past kits. Please pop over to The PMB and join us in the challenge this month, we would love to see your take on this gorgeous sketch!|
This photo is of me and my paternal grandparents whom I grew up not knowing. I was adopted by my amazing dad who married my mother shortly after this picture. It is such a sad and emotional subject, my grandparents. My Grandfather died not long after this so I have no memory of him and did not know he had died until I began searching for my biological father and them when I was 16. When I found my father and grandmother it was then that I learned of his passing as well as my great grandmother. My heart is heavy with the sadness of not knowing them and not having time with that part of my family, but at the same time, my mother did what she felt was best for me and I had a loving family full of laughs and memories that I would never change. I find myself wondering why things have to be a certain way, why my father was an alcoholic, why he chose that life over a life of family with me, why I couldn't have had my grandparents even though my father was lost, so on and so on.
After finding my grandmother and father, I had a few years with them and I am so grateful for that. It was hard to watch my father self-destruct and at times I wish I hadn't found him. But in the end, I suppose I am happy I did and as he took his last breath I held his hand. I had one last Thanksgiving with my Grandmother before she died peacefully in her sleep and as I wept for her, she let me know in her own ways that she was with me. I know that someday we will all be together and my heart smiles because of that knowledge. I suppose I am lucky in some respects, not only did I inherit an amazing family through my adoptive dad, but I also have this side as well. That's a lot of love. Thank you for looking everyone, love and light to all. -Jenny